16 July 09....

Woke up early in the morning, about 5.30 am, with a sadful soul.......

Althought i had classes today, but i planned to skip all the classes, inorder to attend my uncle's cremation ceremony.

In the past few days, I was so shocked when my cousin told me that my uncle was in critical condition and we prayed that he will get well soon, but fate always twist and turn...... and in the very morning of 14 July...I receive a message from my cousin, nervousness began to flush into my mind, i don't know what happened........ I was told that my uncle already rested in peace...... tear rolling in my eyes, i freezed on my bed for a few minutes..... Why it happened so fast? why? and i was furious, why my parents didnt told me that uncle was in critical condition before this?! I study at Negeri Sembilan and it is quite near to KL, and i should visit him. I feel so... so...regret...why i didnt ask my cousin earlier...

I knew that the ceremony will be held on 16 July, and coinsidently my exam is over in the morning of 15 July. After my physics paper, i quickly rushed to HEP and all the Subject Unit to take permission from the lecturers to leave the college tomorrow. Every lecturer seemed to be so helpful and cooperate but the last and the most "powerful" one is not so helpful. He was one of my college Pen. Ketua Pensyarah , he seemed didnt trust me at all.... i felt so mad that time.... will anyone use this to be an excuse to 'ponteng' class? He said that my parents should write a letter .... I said that this is an emergency, i am not able to ask my parents wrote the letter right now! I was so puzzled....stared at him, i don't know what to say....i just repeat and repeat my words "Tuan, Ini Emergency! ..." Then he just sign the letter for me........thanks god......

In that morning of 16 July, i quickly call Uncle Quan (Kereta Sapu) to fetch me up at 6.15am. The Pak Guard and Mak Guard were shocked when they saw me standing at the guard booth there early in the morning, i gave them the signed letter and they let me out, the Mak Guard who was on duty that day was so friendly indeed, she told me that it was better for me to come back to college before 7pm but it is ok if i late, she knew my situation indeed.... thank a lot ....

After reaching Seremban, i took KTM to Mid-Valley to meet my cousin there, but on the way to Mid-Valley, my cousin called me and told me that my KTM will stop at Kajang to give way to another train, so that mean i not able to reach there before the ceremony start...Oo...NO! However i still determined to go, i just sat on the commuter and just see whether the train will stop at Kajang or not.. Thanks God! it is not this commuter, it is another commuter which have to stop, so i was able to reach Mid-Valley and meet with my cousin there. After reaching the station, we quickly rushed to where the ceremony held.

When we reached there, i saw all my relative already there, with sadness on their face, I stood there with speechless, don't know what to say. It was so sad indeed...indeed...At the end of the ceremony I saw my late uncle was lying peacefully in the coffin and i can feel that peacefulness in my soul also. I knew that he didnt suffer from any pain and sickness now...

I believe god love uncle so much, he don't want uncle to suffer any longer... so he took uncle back with him to heaven....Which my uncle will live peacefully there ....with angles and our god....

Still.... deep in my heart i really hope my uncle can live more longer, why it happened so fast.....god.....god is the one who make the decision .....with reason.....god really love uncle....and he don't want uncle to suffer anymore i believe..........