KMNS Life~

Here am i, first time stepped on the Negeri Sembilan's ground. Hmm..... feel so different indeed... very different from Kota Bharu. KMNS was situated on the valley, with several mountains around. The environment here was very nice, just the hostel is a little bit old. Anyway, it was not as worst as i think before.

From the moment i made my decision to take metriculation, i knew that i must really work hard. "Metriculation is not as easy as you think!!!"especially for those second intake one.This is what i learned after staying here for several days. We must catch up many things that we missed, the tutorial works, the assignments, the projects......WEW!!! So tired indeed!!! Here, i have to wash my clothes by myself, arrange my time table properly, self-study and group study. I have to change my life style now, there will be no ASTRO, no Home-cook foods....

However, i still can enjoy my life here, be an independent boy. My roomates were all malay, 1 from Machang, 1 from Puchong, Selangor and 1 from Klang Valley there... They are so nice and humble, very humble indeed. They are very hard-working too, they will study till 1am++.... Me? After I completed some assignments then i will directly went to sleep. I felt so emberassed....haha....but i was really really tired that time, as i had to attend the boring orientation programmes every night for nearly 2 hours.....zzz.... There were nearly 20 chinese in this 2nd intake class. All of them are genius indeed, OMG, nearly all of them scored straight!!! Some from perak, some from penang, some from sabah and some from pahang. We planed to have an outing tommorow to seremban for "TERMINATOR SLAVATION" , huhu.. i am not able to go with them as i had 1 english project to complete =.='' I was so lucky that my class had 4 chinese, 1 indian and 18 malay, a well mixed class for me. Some of them are very enjoyable to talk, some are very dull, some are very serious and some are very "hiao" indeed....haha..... i still remain what i am ..... lol.... sometimes can chat till "Siao" sometime very cool...

The foods here were not as delicious as what Kelantan had of course but still 'eatable'...haha....nearly everyday curry chicken, mixed vege, eggs and a cup of teh-tarik , milo, or nescafe. OMG!!! the drinks here contain nearly 80% of sugar rather than milo or nescafe =.=
i can dilute it with my drinking water for 3 times...... still nothing changed much....... it was so 'think' indeed!!! I think i suffer from diabetese soon if i drink it everyday for 1 year... really had to think another way to make me some 'healthy-drinks'. I missed home-cooked , kelantan nasi dagang......=.=''

Their dialete here also very different from kelantan dialete indeed and their style is different. I know this from our college' Ketua Pensyarah. He gave us a talk with many dialete which i didnt heard before like 'mampoi', 'ketiao'....??? What is this??? haha..... anyway, he was an enjoyble man... i didnt saw any 'principle' like this before... He like simple formal wear... This made me and guo jing thought that he was a 'Penjaga' at the first sight we saw him.....hahaa... Some lecturers are so dedicated like my math and physics tutor, some are very very damn boring and lazy......zzz..... differnt people diffent style.... anyway i had to suite myself here, form my study group and be more determined and hard-working than before :)

*there will be many wrong words, no time checking, forgive me....

~Another Dillema~

Another dillema!!!

Exausted to think, to consider and to discuss........

It was 12.20am in the midnight of 21 May, while i was chatting with some of my friends, teck reminded me to check for the result of Matriculation 2nd intake (reappeal). Deep in my heart, i know that there is just a mere 1% to get it as i didnt appeal through paper work, sending letter or anything else as what my other friends did. What i did is just click on the 'Rayuan Semula" letters appear on the screen. So i didn't think much about it.

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The result, however, turned to be an unexpected "Taniah"!!! I was so happy and excited at that moment as i thought all my friends who reappeal through paper work will also get it. But, the result, again, turned to be an unexpectable one--......'No'...... I felt very weird and confusing indeed. Anyone can explain to me why? Before that i felt very happy but after that i felt worry~ don't know why....

In the morning, i just found out 1 friends who got it also guo jing!....just one! anyway really thanks God ady...

When i discussed this matter with my parents in the morning, they disagreed with my decision to study at Matric. My dad thought that Matriculation's standard not recognised, so it was just a waste of time. For mum, she thought that i am not mentally or physically prepared yet....(=.=''), early-cool-shower, self-study, self-washing, sharing room with strangers..........hmmm....... for me, this can trained me to a more mature and independent man. After all, they said it all depend on myself, so i have to decide myself......

Until now, i am still wondering, can i adapt the environment there, the new friends there and the new rules there??? i don't know......I just have 2 days to decide, as this 25 May is the registratin day........God, please show me the way, STAY oR NOT-STAY????

Blood Donation~

I was so excited when i knew that there will be a blood donation held in SMCH. This was the first time i felt the urge to donate my blood, although i am a blood-phobia, XP, but i was still eager to donate my blood.

It was MT1 class and most of us (nearly 30++ student in L6SB) purposely took the chances to do some 'charity'- donate blood at that period =.=' When i stepped into the carpark where the Blood Donation was held, i saw one packages of fresh BLOOD! i smelt the salty smell of the BLOOD! The smell was so unbearable, it made me feel so....so.....uncomfortable indeed. When i filling up the form, my hand turn "soft" after i saw the blood oozing out from one of the donater's hand into the tube. Anyway, i remained still, yet i am still determined to donate!

When i went to the 2nd counter to check my blood pressure, the medical staff told me that my blood pressure was very low indeed, just 80++ (normal blood pressure 110++), so he ask me to eat somethings first before 2nd round of rechecking. The second-round checking showed that my b.p still low but it passed the requirement....Anyway, he adviced me not to donate my blood......T.T.......The main reason as the midical staff told me why my b.p remain low was not enough sleep. Ohh....how do i know that???

Next time if i want to donate blood, i must sleep early and eat eat breakfast in first!!!

Vampire Life stYle

What a tired day! Yesterday i slept at 1 am and wake up at 5.30am, when i looked into the mirror, hell! Panda's eyes....i am still sleepy.........but........i can't just continue to sleep again, so i just force myself walked to the washroom and splashed some cold-icy water on my face. After bathing, when i wanted to eat my breakfast, i saw the time showed on the clock was 6.40am already, phew!!! i must rush to school before 6.55am as i will duty at GATE B this whole week.... so i just swallowed in every thing that my mouth can take in!

Luckily, there is no traffic-jam today, so i managed to be at school before 6.55am (^.^), what a relief for me, i felt so good indeed, haha, no need to be "marked up". Although i was really sleepy but luckily i managed to 'control' my eyes during biology period and math T1 period...hehe....Last period was a free period for us but we have a lot of homeworks to do, so there was no time for me to continue my sleep =.='

After lunch and bathing, i took out all the homeworks from the school bag and i sweared to myself that i will complete all the homeworks before i went to sleep. However the windy weather and the warm bed beside me made me felt so....so....sleepy!!! I cannot stand it anymore, so i just jump onto my bed and sleep......forgotten to turn on the Alarm and i slept for 3 hours!!! Just imagine, a 3-hours-nap!!! OMG, tonight i will bcome a midnight cat and tomorrow i will tranform to a panda bear with two deep and round black eyes.... =.=''

This habit really need to be change as soon as possible......really.....this is not a human life i think........but.....a vampire life.....=.=''

Procrastination Will Kill

The school had just started it 1st day and i had became blur with Math T2, and this is not good. My tuition's homeworks which i haven't complete yet were piled on my desk, my Math T1 and T2 questions , Muet's report, chemistry's exercise....the list go on and on...... I think that was just normal and easy to complete but when i try to complete it in one time, i found that it was very difficult indeed, not because i didnt have enough time but i can't remeber the steps to do it, especially for math exercises and chemistry exercises. Therefore, what the senior in Upper 6 told me before this is true.........."Procrastination Kill!!!" ......

I think that my form5-study-style must not be applied in form 6 anymore, form 5 and form 6 is two total different level! different situation! and different world! We cannot just leave our homeworks there and just do it on the day we want to hand up to our teacher =.=' It was indeed a hard situation for me who had became lazier these day ~.~'

Sleep earlier and wake up earlier is also another 'skill' that i had to adapt now!!! =.='' althought i love to be a midnight cat.....but i had no choice....so i must just be patience and determine inorder to complete this F6, there is no return :)

mY cLass- L6SB

"Wow!!! So many people!!!", that's s the words i uttered when i knew that my class consists of more than 50 students~ So many new friends to greet and to know :) It was our 1st day in class, so most of teachers just brief us on the subject that they will teach soon and we must buy our text book as soon as posibble, especially biology =.='' Most of the books that the teachers want us to buy and is Logman =.='' i think soon the company will change the name to 'Richman'! As most of the form 6 teachers were using this books! But honestly it was the best of the best, good authors, good exercises... that's what our chemistry teacher, Pn.Quek told us....

On the first period, we were told to choose our class monitor, 5 people was selected (include Xjie and Rikye)...but the one who was elected by the majority vote was our new friend from Chung Cheng. I feel that he was the most suitable candidate, a dedicated and responsible class monitor indeed, indeed...haha... this make me missed Nur and Biou so much.... *.*''

On this particular first day in the class, our dedicated young MT2, Miss XXX( i forgot her name =.='' ) had started to teach us chapter 5. Oh My God, i was so blur, i was confused, what "Stem and Leaf...thing" and the exercise that she gave us, was very confusing @.@..... i became so blur.....haha......i think this is normal, especially for me as my mind has rusted, stopped 'working' for nearly 6 month. This is now the time to 'wake up'!!! I dont want to let my history to repeat in my life anymore! Miss XXX voice was so low, luckily i sat infront(as usual)....... She was nearly fall down on her high heel shoes as the level of the ground was uneven(there is a 'small stage' infront the whiteboard)... phew... =.='' luckily she didnt....luckily...

2nd day of Orientation---boring to excited

It was so so boring indeed, all the talks made me, who was a midnight cat more and more sleepy and my eye kept looking on the ground... luckily i still can stand it, acting like i was a patience listener there.

Prefects were then told to help to introduce every parts and corners of the school for the new comers, haha, i am so excited and turn out to be so energitic. I think work as a tour guide very suide me, hmmm.... maybe i will work as a part-time TG in the future. I try my best to introduce all the part of the Chung Hwa school to a group of new comers, even i was sweating untill my back was soaking in sweat :) They are so excited to go to library and staff room. Why? They said "as there have air-conditioner" =.='' but sadly at that particular moment our school electric broke down. Ooo....so sad.....

U6SP and U6SB class was situated on the 3rd floor of the KH Room building, many pupils felt weird as our class being placed at the building. As most of the pupils thought that the place was spooky. I think it based on people, some think that it is windy, some think that it is spooky...... Every 1 Has Their Own Story.......

1st Day of Orientation

The 1st day of Orientation, hmmm...... quite a boring for me. first of all, the ice-breaking game seemed to became ice-building game. Haahaa... i thought in this activity all of us will have the chance to know each others more , especially those from other schools, but sadly, most of the participaters(us lol) are lazy and shy. Lazy- to walk and greet others. Shy- to talk to others. Haahaa, i think that is normal, either for girls or boys. For me, i was not really in the mood, i was so sleepy indeed as i slept late last night, i just stayed there with my already-know-friends but i am not the only one who did that , it seemed that 95% of the boy was glued to the ground. But after the upper 6 fassis kept pursuading us to move around, then our legs just move.... Ooo.... i cannot re-imagine that scene, it was so 'funny', an ice-breaking game became an ice-building game for us....lolx... however things didnt turn cool down as our batch have some really sporty, cheerful and active girls, haha....

Next was the motivation talks, hmmm.... everyone seem to be so sleepy and bored... but in this talk, many pupils get to know each others (why?? as they sat there, do nothing and just start to talks to each others, ignored the teacher who carried out the talks =.=' ) But when it came to Mr Choo, our school principal who presented the talk, all of the pupils become so "interesting" in that talk and kept quite, haha, it was pupil's normal reaction i think.... but Mr.Choo's talk was serious and some of it really made me realised something.... 'everyone have their own "nasib" and we must accept it, and keep going on, this is life"....... The talk which was presented by Mr. Lau, our school former caunsellor, also make me realise something, "The happiest people don't have everything in life. They just make the best of everything that life brings their way"........

After the talks, we made some personality test( again!? i have did that for more than 8 times!) But, the result are clearer now and i agreed with that result, i am more toward Investigative! so that mean i choosed the correct class (BIO)..... haha :)

"Step by step....be more patience...." that is what i believe ....

Sleepless Night

Yesterday evening was quite fun, going friend's house party, eat nasi kerabu which was one of my favourite hometown dish. Thanks a lot friends~ if not, i will end up sitting in my house 24-hours like a security guard.

I slept late in the night, about 1am. But i keep woke up from my dreams, bad dreams. I didnt know why i will feel so insecure, so lonely and so desperate. Maybe my heart are not yet prepare to face the cruel reality. Isn't sometimes reality is too cruel for us??? What kept appearing on my mind is my going-to-start-soon Form 6 life. I really scare i couldn't make it. Thinking of that, i remember how my most-trusted subject turned me down, Pendidikan Moral. The moment i took the slip peperiksaan, i was paralised, doomed, oh my god, why? i thought it might be account or additional math that got B3. At that moment, my mind went blank, what happened? After went back home, i call my cousin and broke down into tears......... my mum think that i should go rechecking, so did i, but yeaterday, i received my rechecking result's letter, it turn out to be "KEKAL", ohh!!! It is so hard to accept, i just hope that they can send me back my paper, i wanted to know what the stupid question that i did wrong....

Just 2 hours more, i will have to go back to school, to register myself for form 6. Form 6 life was so unpredictable for me. Will it turn out to be a colourful one? an enjoyable one?or it will turn out to be a dark one? With almost 90% of friends dissapear...i dont think my cheerful smile will ever appear on my face again. Will it end out to be a stressful one? or a normal one? For me, what i want is only a peaceful life, a normal life that give me the chance to study and put most of my concentration on my study and not other thing else. Lord, please help me!

Besides all the passive idea on my mind, i still think that form 6 life will able to change my life PerspeCtive, my point of View and my StyLe. I also think form 6 life will make me more mature and make me prepare myself fully to face the life in the future. What i wish now is to put all the concentration on my study and do as well as i can in Form 6. I hope to rebuild my self-confident as soon as possible. It is not the end yet, i know, it is not The End, It just a START!!!

Tired

Today is my last day of teaching form 2 mm tuition, i am so happy indeed but deep in my heart i am not so willing of giving up teaching them. However, sometimes they are very playful and talkative utill i fell that i want to smack their face and stormmed out from the class ......"Geramnya"..... My school holiday will soon come to an end and i have to go back to school with my rusted brain and a lonely heart. Loneliness has haunted me since yesterday, as i realise more and more friends will soon leave KB. It is so hard for me to keep stop thinking of them, imagining the situation i was sitting alone in L6SB without any soul mate beside, without any best friends that can chit-chat. Now, another evil have sipped into my soul -"Depression". I am depressed as i still doubtful of what i really wanted to choose in the future....really....but my cousin words make me realise something. "In this world, we can't find any way what we really 100% want, but we must try our best to choose what we like the most". The moment i heard of that word, i still confusing. However, I realise it now, i can't be so "picky", it will make me misjudge my sitution and fall into a dillema..... a long, time-consuming dillema.