~Another Dillema~

Another dillema!!!

Exausted to think, to consider and to discuss........

It was 12.20am in the midnight of 21 May, while i was chatting with some of my friends, teck reminded me to check for the result of Matriculation 2nd intake (reappeal). Deep in my heart, i know that there is just a mere 1% to get it as i didnt appeal through paper work, sending letter or anything else as what my other friends did. What i did is just click on the 'Rayuan Semula" letters appear on the screen. So i didn't think much about it.

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The result, however, turned to be an unexpected "Taniah"!!! I was so happy and excited at that moment as i thought all my friends who reappeal through paper work will also get it. But, the result, again, turned to be an unexpectable one--......'No'...... I felt very weird and confusing indeed. Anyone can explain to me why? Before that i felt very happy but after that i felt worry~ don't know why....

In the morning, i just found out 1 friends who got it also guo jing!....just one! anyway really thanks God ady...

When i discussed this matter with my parents in the morning, they disagreed with my decision to study at Matric. My dad thought that Matriculation's standard not recognised, so it was just a waste of time. For mum, she thought that i am not mentally or physically prepared yet....(=.=''), early-cool-shower, self-study, self-washing, sharing room with strangers..........hmmm....... for me, this can trained me to a more mature and independent man. After all, they said it all depend on myself, so i have to decide myself......

Until now, i am still wondering, can i adapt the environment there, the new friends there and the new rules there??? i don't know......I just have 2 days to decide, as this 25 May is the registratin day........God, please show me the way, STAY oR NOT-STAY????