Tired

Today is my last day of teaching form 2 mm tuition, i am so happy indeed but deep in my heart i am not so willing of giving up teaching them. However, sometimes they are very playful and talkative utill i fell that i want to smack their face and stormmed out from the class ......"Geramnya"..... My school holiday will soon come to an end and i have to go back to school with my rusted brain and a lonely heart. Loneliness has haunted me since yesterday, as i realise more and more friends will soon leave KB. It is so hard for me to keep stop thinking of them, imagining the situation i was sitting alone in L6SB without any soul mate beside, without any best friends that can chit-chat. Now, another evil have sipped into my soul -"Depression". I am depressed as i still doubtful of what i really wanted to choose in the future....really....but my cousin words make me realise something. "In this world, we can't find any way what we really 100% want, but we must try our best to choose what we like the most". The moment i heard of that word, i still confusing. However, I realise it now, i can't be so "picky", it will make me misjudge my sitution and fall into a dillema..... a long, time-consuming dillema.